Me

Though surrounded I feel alone, 

knowing how I'v turned to stone. 

For a short time I can feel, 

it still just doesn't seem so real. 

I smile though I'm dead inside, 

soon my darkens will not hide. 

Once I show them the real me, 

I know the'll leave I know the'll flee. 

Wanna let go lose my self break free, 

I wanna show the me inside wanna set me free. 

Scared to my myself afraid to speak my mind, 

let them see how lost I am to lost for them to find. 

Broken so inside as I'm set to fire, 

gotta be my self this is getting dire. 

Don't give up

When I was alone you stood there with me, 

you're the best friend a friend could be.

Why did I go and leave you alone,

by your self to turn to stone. 

I left you in your time of need,

I left you behind for my own greed.

I'll never forgive what I have done,

I left you alone like every one.

My feelings on leaving I did hide,

even as you sat and cried.

I never said what I wanted to,

and every day I'm missing you.

As you fall I sit in tears,

watching you live my past fears.

You're living through to much pain,

the vary thing drove me insane.

I cry for you I'm reaching out,

I hear you calling I hear you shout. 

As you feel it a thousand times,

you're the victim of blinding crimes.

You're breaking down and feeling dead,

visions blurring and splatters red.

You die inside with every breath,

ever day closer to death.

You're scaring me and I'm not there,

to hold your hand and show I care.

I am not what you are, 

I'm just the reason for another scar.

Please don't give up please don't die,

I can feel it when you cry.

Don't leave me now I'm still here,

please stop making me feel this fear.

So please come back and be who you are,

its hard to reach you you're so far.

I can't do it I can't lose you,

I know what you are going through. 

Don't go way don't fade to black,

one day I promise I'll bring you back.

Breath again breath with me,

gain your power and be free.

I love so with all my heart,

even though we're part. 

Please get up smile once more,

don't stay down there on the floor.

Please my friend please be strong,

you fought this battle way to long.

Not like this I won't let you go,

I will fight and that you know.

I can feel it you are breaking,

I can feel that you are aching.

Stop this madness get up now,

I will show you exactly how.

Don't leave me hanging in the night,

let me help you come on lets fight.

Come on lets do this you and me,

like old time like it use to be.

I still need you my best friend,

I will need you till the end.

Don't give up on me... 

Chaotic

Though its been some time can't for get what you have said, 

you still break me down and make me feel so dead.

 Why can't you just say what is going on, 

I feel like you're not there i feel that you are gone. 

You say one thing and do another god it breaks my heart, 

tearing me asunder and breaking me apart. 

When can i breath when can I get out, 

when will you hear me do I have to shout. 

I'v done for you more then I'v done before, 

yet you take me down and burn me to my core. 

All the words you say nothing do you mean, 

I have shown you more then any ones ever seen. 

I am just so mad at all that you have done, 

I want away from you i just wanna run. 

Please just tell me now please just let me go, 

please just tell me something my god just let me know. 

I can't keep this up my holding onto you, 

I wanna break me free and feel like I am new. 

The fire gets so hot the fire in my soul, 

burning me with hate burning just like coal. 

As I burn you watch soon I am to die, 

smile on your face as you know I cry. 

Shatter me a thousand times push me to the line, 

you know I'm lost in hell you know that I'm not fine. 

I am lost to you and you are lost and blind, 

I am the light for you the light you have to find. 

I'm reaching out my hand so find me in this hell, 

if you grab a hold my secrets I will tell. 

I don't give a damn what you want to do, 

just please tell now I'm am sick of loving you. 

Tear me down to nothing as I was before, 

what did I expect from you I should not have wanted more.