And I Truly Break

Can no one see me who I am,

all my friends don't give a damn.

Killing me so much inside,

killing me I have died.

Lost me and I quickly fell,

back into the burning hell.

Watch me fade so far away,

watch me die in ever way.

Drop me down so very far,

just cut me deeper leave a scar.

Like you even give a shit,

I am done just done with it.

Why'd they let me fall alone,

why is it that now i'm stone.

Take me down done with the fight,

guess all along you all where right,

I am weak no more am I,

I mean you did just let me die.  

Don't feel bad not for me,

cos it takes this much for you to see.

As I drink and fall once more,

you have already closed the door.

So don't even try after all my waiting,

cos you weren't there when I was fading. 

Now I'm gone no longer me,

so now let me go just let me be.

All the pain that I feel,

just know now its not even real.

I leave you all in the past,

cos i guess that i'm not meant to last.

No more care left in me,

not a single piece to see.

So one more time I am done,

sick of dealing with every one. 

Cos I am really alone...

My old work part 8 (final)

I stand tall and hold all my pain,

I stand tall for strength I will gain.

I stand tall with tears on my face,

I stand tall and hold my place.

I stand tall when no one is there,

I stand tall when life is not fare.

I stand tall with pain in my heart,

I stand tall when I'm ripped apart.

I stand tall with an empty hand,

I stand tall when I'm down in the sand.

I can be strong if I really try,

 for if I don’t I know I’ll die.

My old work part 7

All my pain has come from u, 

crying is all you want me to do. 

All you do is cheat on me, 

you love how I'm so unhappy. 

You make me feel so much pain, 

you want to drive me insane. 

With my tears drenching my face, 

you try to keep me in my place. 

You cant even see what you'v done wrong, 

you think to you I will always belong. 

I am nothing but an object to you, 

put in a box with the girls you go through. 

to think I thought you where my shining stare, 

I'm learning to hate u for who you are. 

You don't see me as your loving wife, 

just a trophy in your life.   

You say you love me so very much, 

but other girls is all you'll touch. 

My old work part 6

I feel uncontrollable anger, 

to my self I am a stranger.

How can I feel so damn sad, 

I close my eyes and feel so bad.

What do I feel these feeling for, 

I drop to my knees on the ice cold floor.

I feel my cracked and broken heart, 

as I sit and fall apart.

Feeling hate and feeling love,

yet falling from this tower above. 

This is how I die in side.

My old work part 5

With tears rolling from my eyes, 

the way I feel is no surprise.

The pain i feel is worse then death, 

sharp needles scrape with every breath.

Killing feeling in my heart, 

the way he makes me fall apart.

The way that he's made me feel, 

makes me wounder if love is real.

With all of me I am but sane, 

I can only feel this shattering pain. 

My old work part 4

The pain that of the past like knives in my heart,

tearing up me up and ripping me apart.

In the past all that was said,

its all coming back now swirling in my head.

Pain like fire pain in my sole,

smolder my heart burned black as coal.

Why me what did you do,

all the pain you put me through.

The world is falling words scream in my head,

a flash of the past a bloody red.

It’s all coming back haunting me,

it's all that's left and all I can see.

My old work part 3

Cold empty hands alone it the night,

feeling lost this isn't right.

Hearts loud beat wont let me sleep,

alone in the night i break I weep.

Tears role down my broken face,

tumbling falling lost in space.

Heart beats fast mind moves slow,

wish you'd hold me never letting go.

Eyes are closed but I'm awake,

I try to sleep instead I break.

I'v become so very week,

hard for me to even speak.

I close my eyes once more tonight,

waiting again for the days first light.

My old work part 2

If I was free what would I do,

spending my days looking for you.

Knowing you hate me what can i say,

I'm just waiting for our last day.

I knew we would never the same,

I knew I'd catch fire and die in flame.

Do I really love you this I might not know,

but one day this will happen I will let you go. 

How I love who you use to be,

why could I not set you free.

Guess we changed over the years,

bringing to life our greatest fears.

I became so angry as did you, 

every thing we use to do.

I broke you down and you broke me,

we are truly not meant to be. 

You made who am some one I don't know,

this is why I'm sure I am letting go.

My old work part 1

Hold the madness deep inside,

hold the anger forever to hide.

Don't ever show it don't let them see,

hold in the fire don't set it free.

 When you're alone no one in sight,

let it out within the night.

It's hard to let go when in suffocation,

snapping at every one in sheer frustration.

 I breath in the sorrow breath in the pain,

constantly crowded going insane.