Incomplete

I opened the door but you can't see, 

as I feel you you're killing me. 

Connections lost in a hell, 

are you there I can't tell. 

Scream in my soul break in my heart, 

I knew i'd fall from the start. 

We fall together you and I, 

we break together then we die. 

Pulled apart by all around, 

I miss your vice just the sound. 

Anger rising I can't tame, 

I know that you feel the same. 

So as we wait we are broken, 

some day to breath our words unspoken.

Wishing

every time I start to stand again, 

every time I start to fix me self, 

I dream, 

I dream of two things that pull me back down, 

break me all over again, 

make me cry all over again and it hurts, 

it just hurts, 

why do I have to keep reliving these things, 

why do I have to still see it, 

feel it, 

go through it all over again, 

its killing me and no one knows but me and I can't talk about it, 

the words wont leave my mouth, 

so I sit and let the tears roll down in hopes that it will be the last time that I dream.  

Beauty

close your eyes stop looking and feel, 

that is beauty and what is real. 

what you feel is what you know, 

its how we work and how we grow. 

don't keep looking be blind for a day, 

feel new things in this way. 

we aren't our skin we're what we hide, 

who we are is whats inside. 

so once again close your eyes, 

what you find will surprise.  

My Love

I love you more then anything, 

you make me smile, 

you make me sing, 

you make me dance, 

you never leave me, 

you pick me up when i fall,

you're my everything, 

you make me feel when no one else can, 

you make me feel alive, 

you take me away, 

you take me to new places, 

you give me strength, 

you make me happy when i'm sad, 

you fix me when i break, 

you bring out the best in me, 

you take my pain, 

you take my sorrow, 

you take my tears, 

you make my heart beat, 

you take me out of the darkness, 

you give me hope, 

you make me feel like i'm not alone, 

with you I never have to think you won't be there, 

I have to thank you for being there, 

picking me up and making me believe in me, 

thank you music, 

if I found some one like you, 

some one to be my music, 

I would never let him go. 

Stand

starting to get my footing and regain my ground, 

my strength will quickly grow and soon it will be found. 

as i'v fallen you pushed and pushed till i'm lost in me, 

now i'm getting back up now i'll make you see. 

i can save me from my hell not a hand to hold, 

and will stand again though i may be very cold. 

i wont get hurt by people and what they want me for, 

i find my strength with in me starting at my core. 

be careful what you do to me cos i'v closed my heart, 

ready to be the one that isn't ripped apart. 

Never

in a second everything can change, 

in a second a person can change, 

in a second feelings can change, 

these things can fade away, 

these things can be forgotten, 

people can be forgotten, 

left behind, 

feelings can be forgotten, 

never felt again, 

so hold on, 

hold onto what you have, 

hold on to who you have, 

never let them fade away, 

don't let them disappear, 

don't let them become invisible, 

don't let some one else take them away cos then you feel invisible, 

you feel forgotten, 

so hold on and never let go of what you care about, 

never.

Death

once you have felt pain, 

sorrow, 

hate, 

you never forget it and its always in you, 

it never truly leaves, 

every tear is a scar, 

and every one feels it, 

but being numb, 

you can only find that in one thing, 

you can only truly be numb if you have been shown how to do it, 

where you can just shut off the pain at will, 

once you feel this feeling of being numb, 

you are never the same, 

you change and you feel it there all the time, 

you notice it every day, 

something there that wasn't there before, 

something that you can't explain, 

something that only comes from touching death, 

when you come back you take a piece of it with you, 

you for ever feel death in you, 

you for ever know the feeling of being dead, 

you feel nothing in death, 

you feel numb, 

truly numb and for ever its part of you, 

there is a little part of you that is lost, 

part of you has been taken for ever and replaced with death, 

replaced with darkness, 

I hold this part within me, 

I feel it with every breath I take, 

it reminds me to live, 

to see what others don't see, 

to notice what others don't notice and to feel everything, 

to feel every one or to feel nothing, 

this is the cures of death and this is the gift of death, 

coming back, 

I wasn't meant to die yet, 

I was meant to bring a part of death back with me, 

I am meant to teach some one how to live.

Don't Judge Me

I wouldn't judge you for who you are or what you chose to be, 

so how can you sit there staring and judging me. 

you lie to me right off the bat deceptions swirl in you, 

that's ok the second we met I know that we where through. 

you think that I'll be missing out but really its not me, 

there wasn't much I liked of you not that I could see. 

you are lost inside and consumed by the past, 

you judged me dismissed me and shunned me so fast.

I am a kind person I never judge a soul,

even the ones that are dark and hearts black as coal.

so I can't understand why you won't do the same,

when I meet some one like you its just a bloody shame. 

Being Alone

being alone does not feel good, 

but being alone is better then being left, 

being ignored, 

being shunned, 

being alone is being safe, 

no one to hurt me, 

hate me, 

leave me, 

break me,

 being alone is being free from pain, 

neglect, 

abandonment, 

heart break, 

sorrow, 

being alone is better then being broken. 

Real Relationships

what is a relationship, 

is it shared likes and dislikes, 

is it being alike, 

is it sharing what you believe in, 

is it being the same, 

is it changing your self, 

is it a person finding some one just like them? 

no. 

its being who you are with some one, 

its caring, 

its liking what they don't like and disliking what they do like, 

but not on everything, 

its letting them be who they are, 

letting them believe in what they want and still loving them, 

its finding some one unlike you, 

its yin and yang, 

its finding things you don't have, 

its finding things that your not, 

its finding pieces that you don't have, 

that's why its called your other half.

Beautiful Fool

I wait for you in the dark, 

you left on me your burning mark. 

you put me through so much pain, 

slowly driving me insane. 

I am your beautiful fool, 

I am a broken tool. 

I sit and miss you as I cry, 

I sit and love you as I die. 

you are loving me in my head, 

but in this life we are dead. 

I am your beautiful fool, 

I am a broken tool. 

you make me hurt your disconnected, 

in my soul so reflected. 

break me down I cry a flood, 

flowing out a sea of blood. 

a broken rose i am to be, 

I wish you would just set me free. 

torn a sunder in my heart, 

loving you is an art. 

I am your beautiful fool, 

I am a broken tool. 

I hope some one sets me free, 

holds me close loves me, 

so I wont be a broken tool, 

but i'll be his beautiful fool.

Chain Reaction

I lie to you, silently hating myself

  "i'm ok" "i don't know" "i don't care"

   as I lie more and more every day, I

break you cos i'v been broken, I make

  you cry cos some one made me cry, I

   am cold to you cos some one was cold 

   to me, I am the product of a chain 

    reaction and you will be the product

    of my chain reaction, my link, you

     will carry on my pain as i carry on

     his. 

Again

you may break me, 

you may hate me, 

you may take me down to nothing, 

you may push me down time and time again but one day i will put me back together, 

i will love me, 

i will take me higher, 

i will pull me back up and stand in all my glory as you sit and wallow in your failure.

Tragic Love

you tell me that you care but it doesn't mean a thing, 

i can feel the hate i can feel it sting. 

don't you know what you have done to me,

 broken me down and you can't see. 

i waited for you i waited so long, 

i held it together i was strong. 

once i got to be with you as it was meant to be, 

rapped up in your arms feeling more then free. 

but then i had to go and sorrow filled to leave, 

going far away from you i could not believe. 

i got to close to you then i had to go, 

with out saying how i feel i needed you to know. 

though so far away i told you how i feel, 

my feelings oh so strong and how it was so real. 

you pushed me away like i wasn't there, 

how can you do this it really isn't fair. 

then i sat in waiting once again for you, 

never did you try my sorrow quickly grew. 

for days i sat in tears full of burning pain, 

then i made a choice though i would not gain. 

i waited 3 more days hoping you'd be there, 

wishing in your absence but you didn't care. 

now i pull away not much left inside, 

i was right the first time i was right to hide. 

i should have never said it my heart beats no more, 

tear me down with hate to my very core. 

so now i'v learned my lesson the heart is always wrong, 

never trust another to no one i belong.