Death

once you have felt pain, 

sorrow, 

hate, 

you never forget it and its always in you, 

it never truly leaves, 

every tear is a scar, 

and every one feels it, 

but being numb, 

you can only find that in one thing, 

you can only truly be numb if you have been shown how to do it, 

where you can just shut off the pain at will, 

once you feel this feeling of being numb, 

you are never the same, 

you change and you feel it there all the time, 

you notice it every day, 

something there that wasn't there before, 

something that you can't explain, 

something that only comes from touching death, 

when you come back you take a piece of it with you, 

you for ever feel death in you, 

you for ever know the feeling of being dead, 

you feel nothing in death, 

you feel numb, 

truly numb and for ever its part of you, 

there is a little part of you that is lost, 

part of you has been taken for ever and replaced with death, 

replaced with darkness, 

I hold this part within me, 

I feel it with every breath I take, 

it reminds me to live, 

to see what others don't see, 

to notice what others don't notice and to feel everything, 

to feel every one or to feel nothing, 

this is the cures of death and this is the gift of death, 

coming back, 

I wasn't meant to die yet, 

I was meant to bring a part of death back with me, 

I am meant to teach some one how to live.